18 years has passed, and I am almost finishing my youth period to get into another stage of life, where life is more complex than the school years. Yesterday, I lay in my bed and start to think about my future, what I would do when I finish my high school? I have just realized that right now I have never thought what I want, what is my goal, what is my interest. Every time that I asked somebody what are they going to do, they were pretty sure of what they want to do, all of them has their own dream. But where is my dream? I even don’t know what I am looking for…..-_-“. I hope to find something that I am really interested in, then my life would be enrich with a lot of significance stuff, not like now, every day after classes I just stay at house, but even if I go out, where I should go?
Studying is a pleasure, but it is only one year left, and time passes quickly. I am happy but at the same time worried, because my parent put a lot of expectation on me to get in to a foreign country’s University, and that put me under pressure, I am afraid to fail and disappointed them. After all, they have been working a lot to maintain me and my sister in a good family environment, I don’t want to disappoint them. However, since I was a child, I never trust in my self, always afraid of others look and when they put to much attention on me, that is why I try to do my best, I am afraid to fail in anything and then other people said that I can’t do anything. Ah!! Life is so difficult……
Studying is a pleasure, but it is only one year left, and time passes quickly. I am happy but at the same time worried, because my parent put a lot of expectation on me to get in to a foreign country’s University, and that put me under pressure, I am afraid to fail and disappointed them. After all, they have been working a lot to maintain me and my sister in a good family environment, I don’t want to disappoint them. However, since I was a child, I never trust in my self, always afraid of others look and when they put to much attention on me, that is why I try to do my best, I am afraid to fail in anything and then other people said that I can’t do anything. Ah!! Life is so difficult……
1 comment:
It takes longer for some people to get to know their place in the world, know what they want for their lives. But you're still so young, and I'm sure many people around you want to help you and give you all the support you need in this difficult stage. Don' lose hope!
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